Sometimes I'd like to flip to the last page of my book and know my story. I want to know that it all works out and that I find love and home and happiness and success. I've relaxed into an enjoyment of the journey over the past year and I don't want to miss out on any part of my experience. But it wouldn't hurt, during the tough times, to know that it all turns out ok...even awesome, in the end. I want to know that, down the line, I'm settled past the transitions and the logistics into the awesome part. It's all the living part, it's all the journey, it's all the learning. But there are some things I know I want to experience that haven't happened yet and sometimes that period of questioning, of not knowing, and of making tough decisions is painful. At those moments I just want to see through to the other side and know I'm making the right calls.