Upon my return to the states a few weeks ago after 3 months abroad, I was confronted with the reality that I needed to regroup, visit my west coast storage unit, and prepare for an altogether different kind of journey. I needed to prepare for an open ended kind of journey, one in which I had no idea how long I'd be gone, what kind of climate I'd be in, what I'd be doing for a living, who I'd meet or see along the way. It's a unique experience to pack for the unknown. It's one I welcomed with open and excited arms.
After a few days reflecting on the process ahead, I decided I needed to make a list. Not the kind of list you immediately think of that includes things like 2 pairs of jeans, 5 t-shirts, travel hair dryer, lots of chapstick...I know all of that by heart at this point. What I needed to list, were the kinds of experiences I needed to pack for and a list of the traits I wanted to embody with the items I packed. I decided that everything I packed and, just as importantly, everything I left behind, must fit the new ideal vision I had for my life. And so I created my list of experiences to pack for. It's in my journal and it looks like this:
Warmth
Love
Fun
Writing
Flexibility
Travel
Surrender
Spirituality
Yoga
Learning
Challenges
Inspiration
New Relationships
Peace
Happiness
Abundance
Adventure
My second list is titled And Who do I Want to Be? It looks like this:
Feminine
Kind
Loving
Honest
Healthy
Nurturing
Affectionate
Warm
Sexy
Smart
Clever
Funny
Adventurous
Every piece of clothing, every accessory, every token and trinket I packed into my two bags was chosen with care and careful consideration for the intended road ahead. Every piece fits one of these intentions for my journey. I want to feel and chase every single one of my new dreams. I plan to be very deliberate and have strong intentions for the moves I make now, and with the items and pieces of me I have packed, I feel fully prepared.
Kristin, regarding your second list...you already ARE who you want to be...if you can recognize it to write it in a list, it exists within you. You just have to own it. I have only known you for a very short period and see all of those attributes in you.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, seems like yesterday we were car-pooling to Santa Monica Beach in your new car! I've just spent the last hour reading through your blogs--FABULOUS. I love your path in life. It reminds me something I read many years ago in one of Carlos Castenada's books--"For me there is only one path in life; a path with heart. And there I travel looking, looking breathlessly". Be well my friend.
Bebe I'm honored that you took the time to read my posts. You have no idea how much your words mean to me during this time of transition. It has been a strange, wonderful, difficult, enlightening journey and it has not been an easy one, but it makes me so happy and it makes the journey so much more fun to receive support like yours here :) Thank you, thank you, and I hope you're well!! xo
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